I deleted my thread.
Been processing some of the stuff in my life lately and I feel like I'm spending too much time focusing on the things that piss me off instead of spending my time doing things that don't disappoint me or piss me off. I'm wasting mental energy that's already in short supply. I'm sick of being angry and trying to fight people.
I figured this out and went back to kill the thread before it got off the ground. I feel like all I'm doing is spreading the irritation and anger around.
I'm going to take a very long break from the internet of things and live my life here in the present, in Kentucky, with what is in front of me. I spent too much of my life in a virtual world and I'm not sure if it's really serving me any purpose outside of stress, anger, misinformation, lies, disappointment, and division.
I just want to ride my bike and push out all the bullshit inside my own head for good. I can't change anything and it's not my place anyway.
These past two years..... No, more like 20 years.... had been spent processing one absurd or outrageous thing after another and this stuff is getting free rent in my head. I should be living my life while I still can.
ScooterTramp Scotty (Kerekes) has some incredible wisdom and I'm thinking maybe I need to give up everything like he did and live a life of austerity or at least spartan-like in the sense that I want to get rid of the things that complicate my life and learn to appreciate the stuff that's not compromised, twisted, or fkd up
You're welcome to start your own thread on it and I know this is all TMI. The only reason I replied with my reasoning is so that you didn't think someone is censoring us in here.
Peace homie