Thanks so much everyone, means allot to me; I had to let people know who he was. I've often said there are levels of friendship and one I call a "wallet friend". That's someone you can leave with your wallet, alone in your truck, or near a stack of cash and you know they'd never consider touching it. Seems sad to say that's a rare thing to find these days but that was Ryan. I was never good at charging him any money, that's how I met him when he wanted some work done. But he was such a likeable guy that all of a sudden 8 hours went by and I didn't want any compensation, I was just happy to see him. I wanted so badly to get just one build done for him, especially after he lost his life long best friend last year. Sometimes it seems like we spend allot of time "preparing" for our future or towards reaching goals but that's the easy part, actually getting things completed is often far more difficult. Like the "20 Day Build" I did back around 2008, that took allot of commitment...
I know I can't and I know I shouldn't but I've been beating myself up lately that instead of just sending him money I should have just driven out there and dragged him to the damn hospital. Thing is, I wasn't aware that it had gotten so bad that he couldn't even work. And I didn't know that no one was helping him, he was just waiting for that May 11th appointment and I was buried in an apartment rebuild after already having 2 empties. IDK if the hospital took the time to look at whatever he had going on seriously enough the first time he went in. I'm sure it's been hard for them too after the Covid debacle and with so many people coming in with no insurance or looking for drugs, I don't know how they perceived him. By the time I tried to help he had been approved for Mass Health but I couldn't get him to go back and I feel like I did the easy thing instead of taking the time to help. Nothing is more important in this world than to give someone your time, it's one of the only things you can share selflessly. It's over and nothing will change what's happened, I looked at him as an equal but knowing in reality that he was just a 30yo kid is allot harder to swallow...
All our government does is distract us while they steal from us, misspend our tax $ and ruin our country