The plan

[DAM shop]

Dam dawg, well I won't pretend to know what you are going through fabs but I do appreciate you putting it all out there for sure.. I had a counselor tell me once that it's the strong person that reckonizes he has a problem and is willing to fix it.. it sounds like to me you are struggling with what type of changes you need to make and are trying to justify those changes by expressing your unhappiness. I say do something opposed to do nothing, to many people are stuck in unhappiness because A they don't reckonize anything is wrong or B they don't think there is anything better out there.. I say find what makes ya happy brother. You may even want to talk with someone outside your circle as they could help put thing into perspective for ya..
Hawaii dosent sound like a bad place to kick it for a while a simpler life and all..
Take care brother find some beauty in your life, stay away from the booze, make a change.

[Shep1970]

By the way Shep ..........you`re lookin mighty cute in dem jeans ..........Shep

Ooooo, just wait till’ the jean shorts come out!!! Nico suave “brand”
Shouldn’t you be taking the wife out to brunch or something.......

Shep

[fabiodriven]

There is a answer to your problems, He's the answer to every ones problem, and wise men still seek Him. Chances are you don't want to hear it, I get that, but I still have to put it out there.

I'm uncertain about why you would assume he's not already with me. I don't like mankind's take on religion and don't agree with your views in particular, but you are no closer to him than I am.

[fabiodriven]

John, I gave this to someone I know to read and they asked if you’d ever tried QHHT?

I don't know what that is Nico.

[DAM shop]

Fabs,
I believe that QHHT IS Quantum Healing Hypnosis Therapy.. something I am not familiar with

[El Camexican]

Fabs,
I believe that QHHT IS Quantum Healing Hypnosis Therapy.. something I am not familiar with

Yes Sir, that’s the one. I’m trying not to analyze the thoughts, needs and feelings of others, but I will say that the person that suggested it also made a comment that if someone feels that they have the ability to bring rain and darkness along with them in their travels then they also have the ability to make the sun shine brightly.

Unfortunately they had no insight on how to duplicate Swatland’s flowing locks.

[bkm]

That Swatland is so dreamy though.

[fabiodriven]

Fantastic Nico, and I do also have the ability to bring the sun. That's why we never discuss the weather before a certain gathering hosted by this site. On many occasions I have attended events that were supposed to be rained out that I was convinced I had something to do with. Crazy, slightly yes, however our respective points of view in regards to our experience in this realm is indeed our own personal universe, and if I'm running this universe it is I'm experiencing, then obviously I'd like to steer it as I see fit. That makes each and every one of you players in a universe that belongs to me. Now before you fault me for labeling others mere actors in my universe, I am equally an actor in each one of yours. We all have our own experience.

Upon my departure from Boston to Thailand the entire ten day forecast showed rain. I was able to get that down to one day of actual rain upon my arrival.

[Mickey Dunlap]

I'm uncertain about why you would assume he's not already with me. I don't like mankind's take on religion and don't agree with your views in particular, but you are no closer to him than I am.

All I have to do is point the way, it's up to Him to bring you along.

[fabiodriven]

Thank you Mickey. I do appreciate your posting.

I'm up and about in the sun right now and doing better than I was yesterday so...

[fabiodriven]

Stupid sexy Swatland!

https://youtu.be/WaeRM7X_yS4

[Dirtcrasher]

I'd love to see Hawaii but afraid to fly, lol...

Your a good guy John with allot of interesting beliefs. I often have thoughts of some things that you have said in the past or present, which at that time, I could or couldn't see.

The end result being, you were right!!

Anyhow, I have allot of goals I still want to reach and a short time to get there, but all I can do is take them on 1 at a time. But the desire has not fizzled out!

Be well bud...

[plastikosmd]

Don’t look at moving in from the old “plan” as a failure, just evolution. Keep pushing forward, good luck

[fabiodriven]

I hope I'm not jumping the gun here, but I feel 100x better now than I did when I posted last night or when I got up this morning. My father's girlfriend is a nurse, and she's well versed in nutrition type health. She sees a holistic doctor as well. This morning she broke out a book on autoimmune disorders and natural remedies. Long story short, I drank some green stuff, kept eating fruit (which is almost all I've been able to stomach), and it wasn't long after that I felt the hankering for a sangwich. So that was a huge improvement in what seemed like an absurdly short amount of time. We just got back from the beach which was absolutely friggin awesome. A giant sea turtle swam right into my leg as I was walking in shin deep water, scared the crap out of me. There's nothing to be afraid of with them, I just wasn't expecting it. It was big enough that I could have caught a ride if he was OK with it. That was cool.

It goes without saying what kind of beaches there are here, so it was great. This was a small beach, probably no more than 20 people spread out there. It was funny, there were 3 male/female couples, and all the rest were women. Two or three pairs of two women, all the rest were women by themselves. I couldn't believe it. There wasn't a Swatland in site the entire time I was there. I was the only man there aside from the ones who were already occupied. I soaked up the sun and swam in the ocean, it was great. Talk about a complete 180, my word.

I'm curious how I'll sleep tonight, but I bet I'll sleep well. I would really like to thank all of you who have posted and shown concern for me, I didn't aim to raise any alarms. I was extremely concerned about things last night when I posted, I was in very bad shape, really bad. I wasn't sure why I was posting, but perhaps that was the outlet I needed or a life line to the energy that you all have sent me, which you all have whether you realize it or not. It is very well received and there is no way I can thank you guys enough, truly. I'm not bowshitting when I attribute much of my feeling better at this moment to the support of the members of this site, so thank you all very much. It might seem silly to some, but this was a pretty serious situation for me. I have no idea how I'd fly home if I had a full blown relapse. Ideally I'll really be able to enjoy myself from this point on.

[ezmoney1979]

Glad to hear you are feeling better. Go hit up Makena Beach....... Grab some tacos from Jaws Tacos (in the parking lot) and stay till sunset.